Been a while

 It's been about 12 weeks since surgery and I can gladly say my body is feeling like it's almost to where it should be.  I got my last drain out of my hip two weeks ago, which was AMAZING. It was really great to not have to accommodate for having a drain and tubing all the time.  I can now wear clothes regularly and not have to worry about pinning a drain and trying to hide it or not get anything caught when pulling my pants up.  I've also been doing PT for four weeks which has helped INCREDIBLY.  I am now able to lift my arms normally and I can stand up straight without hurting!! Praise God! I do still have some pulling in my abdomen but it's not NEARLY as bad as it has been.  I should be able to go without any abdomen compressions anymore! We are currently working on stretching out the scar tissue and abdomen strengthening.  I'll be back to normal just in time for my next surgery! Haha!  My oophorectomy and breast revision surgery is scheduled for December 11th.  I haven't had my pre-surgery appointment with Plastics yet, but I believe this will be an outpatient surgery and I believe will only take a few hours.  Compared to what I've already been through, this will be a piece of cake! 😁 

About 4 weeks ago, I started taking Tamoxifen.  The plan was for me to take it until my surgery, and then I would take a different med after surgery.  I lasted about 2 weeks.  Just as I feared, the side effects were way too much.  I noticed I would get lightheaded at random times, I was even more easily agitated and ANYTHING would set me off.  I felt angry and irritated and anxious all the time. I also was feeling depressed and was on the verge of tears all the time.  This was not normal and I knew was not ok. So my doc agreed that I should stop.  I've been off of it for about 2 weeks and am slowly starting to feel better.  

I'm so excited for 2020 to be over and not just because of what has been going on globally, because that won't end on December 31st, but because other than PT, this chapter of my life should be done.  No more surgeries and hopefully, no more cancer.  I'll still have my check ups, but I'll gladly do those to stay cancer-free!  I'm praising God for how He's had His hand over all of this.  Yes, all of it has sucked, BUT, it could have been worse AND I'm still alive and here for my family.  God deserves all the glory!

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