Surgery Day

 Holy moly has it been a busy month!  We are officially all moved out of our townhouse and into our new house!  You never realize how much stuff you actually have until you move. We hired movers and they filled their truck and we still had about 6 or 7 carloads or stuff after that. Thankfully, we had some AMAZING friends and family helping through the whole thing, from painting to moving to cleaning, and even bringing over some delicious food. Two days after we got possession of the house and started the cleaning and painting process, I got the long awaited call.  I have a surgery date!!  Monday, August 17th. That gave me exactly 2 weeks to prepare. With moving and unpacking, those two weeks have FLOWN by. We are still not completely unpacked, but mostly at least...and I still have today and tomorrow to get stuff done.  Yesterday is when it REALLY started to sink in. I have my surgery in two days.  Two days and then everything changes. Although I am excited and ready to get it done, I'm also very scared. I am not worried anything will go wrong during surgery, but rather how things will be after surgery.... all the unknown... as well as knowing I will have to heavily rely on others for a month or two.  I'm used to being independent and doing things for others....that's what moms do.  They don't sit and do nothing. I wonder how long it'll take before I get really sick of it... 

Well, I'll update probably late next week after I'm a little settled after surgery.  Now back to getting the house situated.....I guess one good thing is I MIGHT be able to catch up on sleep... I feel like I've been exhausted for an entire month. This momma needs a break.

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